Right now i feel like rubbish and i need lots of cheering up. Something came to light this evening that someone i'm close to has told lies about me. Right now i want to eat lots of chocolate, crisps and anything else that will make me feel better but i'm not going to as i don't have any of that stuff in the house and i'm not going to go and buy it.
I just don't know what to do right now. Everything is horrible and i want it to all go away. My christmas was crap just as i knew it was going to be but at least new year was better. I'm thankful that i have some truly amazingly supportive friends who i love to death and i would do anything for them. If it wasn't for them i don't know how i'd be today.
With all these things you'd think that it would make my go off track but in a way it has made me more determined to do well. I want to loose this weight and show what i can do but mainly i'm doing it for me to feel better about who i am and who i want to be.
Even if i don't get to target this year i will be well on the way and i'll feel and look better. I already feel so much better than i did a year ago so i can only imagine how i'll feel next year.
To succeed i will go weekly (as long as i have the money) to group and stay to image therapy as that support is so useful. I will also carry on with the gym and soon start to go swimming as well and will carry on walking as much as i can as i hope to do a charity walk in the summer.
Even thou there is so much crapness in my life i can still see a faint light at the end of the tunnel and i'm slowly making my way towards it and i don't want to be dragged backwards anymore. I can't be the only one that feels like this can i?
I can and will be in charge of my life. Tomorrow is a new day and i see it as a day to do to something positive towards the new me. It may just be something small or something big but it will be something good like some of the following
Going to the gym
Going swimming
Dying my hair
Painting my nails
Getting rid of old clothes
Giving things to charity
I know there are lots of other things but i can't think of them right now. I will post on what positive thing i have done each day starting tomorrow. If you have any ideas of what i can do please post them here.
For now goodnight and happy slimming